Would you just keep truckin? Of course, because what other options do you have? I want to use the gifts the Lord has given me to the fullest, but one triggers a struggle that I have had since before I knew the Lord. That's the old me...I don't want that...I want to be able to use this gift without second guessing. Forget about me! Set ME aside and let God move!
Someone once said in church something like, if people are too busy looking at you how are they going to se ME (GOD)?! It's true. I want people to look at me and see Jesus! My desire is for You Lord to use me as your hands and feet and mouth and heart!! Lord I desire to be fully and completely consumed by YOU! I want to feel your fire and passion inside of me 24/7! Lord this is my desire...I want everyone to have a chance to feel and experience YOUR LOVE!! and MERCY! I love You...Help me to love you FAR more than I love people and through this you will use me and this gift of love to share YOUR love with others!
So why do I feel I need to go away to reach all this? Am I running or trying to? Only you know...what I know is that I love so many people here where I am and for me home is where the people I love are. But then I WANT to follow YOU! So please Lord take me where you want me to go!! I love you! Be light unto my feet!
